Heard KatherineAnn is married

Congratulations.

And has children.

Congratulations again!/HGL

XXXIII - 10 - 12.X.2019

Words under a video are my comments on it, unless in italics, and words under anything else are what I am telling you. Numbers under a video are minutes and seconds.

Thursd. 10.X.2019

evening

Total Relaxation Hypnosis 2 (Text)
Stephanie Dillon | 14.VIII.2014
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_qIxyCB_wlk

7:59

Night 10-11.X.2019

When going to sleep, around 21 - 22, I used suggestions by Dillon to get real deep and after perhaps half an hour or an hour, I was asleep. (This could be an illusion of time seeming shorter than it really was).

After going to pee in the middle of the night, I got back to sleep easily, but was a bit in a lag when woken up at 7:35.

Frid. 11.X.2019

morning

Hypnotic Induction 1 (Text)
Stephanie Dillon | 10.VIII.2014
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dq-IwoffsBw

5:59

I like this video (both commenting and liking here, since I don't want to withdraw the like already given).

Frid. 11.X.2019

evening

twice:
What Does Hypnosis Feel Like?
Theta Spring Hypnosis | 13.X.2014
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dE9sgtZadu4

2*5:38

Thank you!

Took a "second bite" - even better (knew what way to cut the lemon beforehand this time)

You might like to read a bit on my "hypno journal".

https://hgl-hypno-journal.blogspot.com/2017/03/i-katherine-anne-interactive-induction.html

You might also want to read the mail I just sent you.

Apprendre l'auto-hypnose
Doctissimo | 21 juin 2014
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0uMM5mjcp1I

Saw of a total 19:33 up to c. 6:45.

Complete Relaxation Session (Text)
Stephanie Dillon | 18.VIII.2014
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Zu4eAmugZ8M

11:59

I give the video a thumbs up and subscribe after first unsubscribing and cancelling, so I can follow the instruction.

OK, music was very relaxing, and I had already had one of your videos this morning (it is evening now) and one yesterday, so, despite noise, I could kind of feel "the pull" all way through, and even relax and forget about the guys trying to disturb me (if intentional) in the cyber.

It really does feel good to follow your words, and I hope I will again feel as good about praying the rosary.

And protraction over 12 minutes does help to deepen the experience, though one problem, I was "draining the bath tub" near bottom before you said half way down.

When I really did reach bottom, I recalled bath tub insides after draining after long baths. Real, confortable part of my childhood.

Fractionation Hypnosis for Calmness
Alicia Fairclough | 5.VIII.2014
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=16fpSw0O6NI

11:10

Exellent fractionation hypnosis.

Had one just before from Stephanie Dillon, so, a fine compensation for a week that was harrassing ....

Excellent, I mean of course. [corrected next day]

Night

11-12.X.2019

I went out after midnight from the cyber and found a place to sleep around 1.

On the way I hoped Christ would preserve me from wanking, since I thought it was another Marian Feast, the one for the delivery of Vienna in 1683. Though I wondered why two came on consecutive days, the session I came out from starting at 21:05 or sth in 11.X, Maternity of the Blessed Virgin Mary, and so there would be another right next day.

To sleep, I said? Not quite, I was woken up at least twice by people just before going to sleep, so the trance state was prolonged for over an hour. Including prayer.

I also wanked, which is one reason I keep this journal "adult content" (13+), and i suppose I was off guard by relaxation, which means by refusing the mortal sin ordinarily, I make my body crave hypnosis as a roundabout means to getting an orgasm, which, if I were married, I could get usually without sin. I would also be getting trance by prayer, Rosary, as a peaceful life would allow me to say "as we forgive those who trespass against us" (the Our Father is part of the Rosary).

Going back to "sleep" took a longer part of trance this time, even if shorter than before, due to wanking.

When I woke up at 6:22, someone getting out, I would have been horribly tired (and nearly was anyway) if trance hadn't been replacing sleep as if in a concentrate.

Satd. 12.X.2019

morning

Interactive Induction
katherineanne83 | 24.XII.2011 (25.XII.2011?)
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ik-1-7Z6QDI

6:28

Les commentaires ont été désactivés pour cette vidéo.

It was not a sacrilege on top of sin against nature, the Marian Feast I wanted to keep clean was 12.IX, not 12.X. And therefore also not two consecutive Marian feast days on two consecutive days, which had made me wonder.

Video time

Friday night
2*5:38 + 11:59 + 6:45 + 11:10 = 2*38 + 59 + 45 + 10 = 190 = 3:10
10 + 11 + 6 + 10 + 3:10 = 40:10
Overall
7:59 + 5:59 + 6:28 + 40:10 = 59 + 59 + 28 + 10 = 156 = 2:36
7 + 5 + 6 + 40 + 2:36 = 1:00:36

Now I have less money to spend (none on me) until I can get money out of the bank, I'll probably have finished this, if you will call it so, binge. And I will probably spend some time in trance before going to sleep the days that ensue.

XVII Updates After Good Friday to 6.V.2017

Have been doing very fine as to getting to sleep, often doing without hypno craving, but getting myself a moderate dose of it* through out April, usually by auto before going to bed, either leaving it to God or allowing Katherine Anne or Alicia Fairclough to step in.

Night to Easter Monday, it led to so great relaxation, when waking up, I abused myself.

On Easter Monday I did listen to Alicia Fairclough's rapid induction :

Can you be hypnotised with a rapid induction?
Alicia Fairclough
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Sfr_o8pLubE

And while it was very comforting, I am concerned it contained a factual untruth, even if not a doctrinal heresy.

I am not respected by everybody, even if later that day it actually helped me to have felt that way.

But shows level of what I can "swallow" without criticism is a bit too malleable. I didn't jerk out of trance when she said everyone respects me. Watched some more Fairclough, but not a hypno one, and am glad I heard of her trouble using hypnosis for relaxation, and taking to sensory deprivation tank instead. Every weakness is welcome, as reminding me, however much anyone of these may help me, they are human, not goddesses, and need my prayers, in a general way.**

Have not been coming back to full regularity of Rosary. But have been praying it on and off, most weeks at least some days.

Have been entrusting my alpha state (esp before going to sleep) explicitly to God. Asking Him to repair what needs repair and maintain what needs to be maintained in me, rather than trying some repair on my own judgement.

Was prevented from watching this one:

Hypnosis for sleep - Creativity Boost ASMR POV (Female Hypnotist - Pocket watch induction)
Cara Institute of Advanced Hypnosis
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ybIzRO7Tjlk

Except first minutes.

Was later glad, since it was not meant to wake up from, like the two others, but to "consume" before going to sleep. Left comment:

I was nearly going to watch this in a non-home setting, where I would not be able to go to sleep after the session.

Later I watched parts of text (subtitles, sound off), tried to adapt it to my self hypno sessions (trains or "bed").

Sitting from porch was a great visualisation.

Later watched more (subtitles, sound off), and reacted against "rag doll" and discarded the video from my program.

Last few nights, tried a lucid dream technique for going to sleep : after "eyelid glue" (if you know what I mean), I visualised a mirror, putting my hand through it, finding myself in starry space (alternative, it may be on a lake, finding myself seeing stars and night with waves coming out from a centre) and going on from there to - sleep and dream.

Took two tries at rewatching Katherine Anne, yesterday and today.

Yesterday, I was very interrupted by someone who was loud beside me in cyber café, today less so, since they only got loud beneath.

After rewatching interactive induction:

Interactive Induction
katherineanne83
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ik-1-7Z6QDI

(interrupted yesterday, less so today, as said), I watched also (today):

Update!!...and a little covert hypno.....
katherineanne83
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zb6Vwn5r0pk

before going on to non-hypno videos.

When leaving and after train, I felt some eyelid "irritation" (not itching, but "itching to drop", if you know what I mean).

Was before train feeling somewhat depressed or oppressed, and wondering whether this was spiritually dangerous.

Decided to leave it to God.

Under second of Katherine Anne ones, left this remark, replying to one question not previously answered by me which she had posed in video:

Hair style ... Mary Poppins? Btw, would you mind going through the books of P. L. Travers and see which ones of the "magical" experiences would be possible to experience by hypnosis? Could you make someone think he and you were floating in the air just under the ceiling, as long as you were laughing? I am asking, because I wonder whether that was what PLT experienced with Gurdjeff - much nearly "a monk" but who went into yoga and possibly hypnosis too.

And misspelled Gurdjieff as Gurdjeff, when doing so.

Other indication of this making me perhaps a bit distracted, I found more money in my pocket when leaving the city where I had been watching videos, than I thought I had, and yesterday I had missed some money which I had thought I had. Hypnotised twice to give and receive money and forget about it and about hypnotist each time? That is one of the situations I was wondering about in this post:

IX quora : If one practises self hypnosis, is it easier to be hypnotised by a stranger?
hgl-hypno-journal.blogspot.fr/2017/03/ix-quora-if-one-practises-self-hypnosis.html

While I think these ladies are doing some real good, I also think it is sad the times are so stressful they are needed./HGL

____________________

* Or what I take to be moderate. I might be a hypno glutton.

** In a general way : I am wary about praying for too specific things, which might be totally what they least need or want.

_____________________

Here is an example of real situations being so stressful - and there come many of them - that I am driving to resort to hypnosis for extra rest and calm:



Library computer had all movements ultra slow and mouse click and bluing jumping - after a night woken up just after falling back to sleep after having left bank locale to pee. And after that, new place I was kept awake and was too full in the stomach to enter a hypnotic state, was awake some hours more, one or two at least.

It is not as if I had been lacking sleep due to endogenic insomnia, it is about being woken up. Perhaps in some places and times by people wanting me to seek out hypnotic relief.

I Katherine Anne, Interactive Induction

Video

Interactive Induction
katherineanne83
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ik-1-7Z6QDI

My Comments

I

In the cyber where I listened to it, the owner made sure to made noises so I really COULD NOT totally ignore them. Some people just don't want me to relax, and if it were only they were afraid of hypnosis (which happens with some sections of Indian Subcontinent immigrants), I wonder why some are so eager to also disturb my sleep.

II

You might want to know why I rejected hypnosis at about age 22 after late teens engulfed in self hypnosis. I considered things like "your eyelids are getting heavier and heavier" or "you can't open your eyelids, the more you try to open them, the more they are stuck" as lies. Hence induction itself begins by immortality. Now, here you have at least the decency to start with "you might want to" ... meaning the viewer is admitted as having a choice. Thumbs up for that!

[I misspelled "immorality" as "immortality"]

III

Not Christmas right now, but the day after Lady Day. Best wishes for Lent!

II Katherine Anne Update!!...and a little covert hypno....

Video

Update!!...and a little covert hypno.....
katherineanne83
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zb6Vwn5r0pk

Note:

She does say sth about sleeping first and only day after that telling what happened.

My comments:

March 25:

OK, I am perhaps not sure you wanted all the details the day after a night's sleep, but here we go.

The dirty stuff first. Some people go to whores and get drunk first. I sometimes use self hypnosis in a similar manner before self satisfaction - which comes unplanned and I was stinking all the morning and still need to wash some after I already did my laundry.

Now, the things you might be more interested in - as a hypnotist. I saw the video three times over, and had already seen that Christmas gift video. As you might imagine, the thought of dreaming you met me on the street and hypnotised me was not just running in the back of my head unconsciously. I was seeing foreward to it. I can tell you more about my day dreams than about my night dreams, because my sleep got disturbed by someone, and I woke up with too little sleep.

Here we go, changing "me" and "you" to HGL and KA.

HGL : [strolling on a sunny street in summer through otherwise unidentified street, empty except for ...]
KA : [shows up, waves]
HGL : Oh, it's Katherine Anne! I'm zonked!
KA: What do you mean zonked? I haven't started yet? HGL : Some criminals see the police and say "I'm fried" before they are ...
KA : Oh, in that sense?
HGL : Yea, you probably came to zonk me, and if so, I am zonked.
KA : You can say that again [smirk]
HGL : I am zonked.
KA : I want to hear it again [catches my eyes]
HGL : I am zonked.
KA : [touches me on arm] Next time you say that, you really are.
HGL : OK? [feeling arm being moved]
KA : Now say it.
HGL : I am zonked.
KA : [snaps finger, drops my arm] sleeeeeep.

And as I day dreamed about it, I went down a bit more.

March 26

After second night. Found a place I thought would be quiet, even so got my sleep disturbed.

The morning I had a queezy day dream about Cercone being involved in zonking me out.

I'd prefer you, even if you are less experienced in the "hypnotose my room mate" thing.

Now, back to the evening. Went out a time or two even before last moment of closure, so just woke up to see one of two girls enter and talk to her. Then went out pretty quickly, not doing much, rolling eyeball so as to "look at skull from inside" had eyelids fall quickly, went out soon after that.

Dream one : farewell to the Dawn Treader. Lots of episodes involving the Pevensies, think I remember Peter and Lucy from the last cast (Walden media). Not sure where I came in myself, if I did.

Dream two : cutting out pieces of human flesh (my own, perhaps not exclusively) and wrapping them around cannon balls, shooting at Putin.

Don't know where pieces of human flesh come from, but am against Putin in real and wake life too. As a "reactionary" he's so inferior to the reactionaries I do like or admire. Even Mussolini whom I like more than I admire, had banned abortion in Italy after four years in power, and in the years up to Matteotti case at least did not depend in secret services.

Putin made his carreer in secret services, while Mussolini was a poor man and a syndicalist.

Dreams about meeting you in street and you hypnotising me : dreams as opposed to day dreaming before going to sleep, none.

Torrid details - none this night.

After that

Continuing outside the comment section. See next post.

IV Continuing Journal March 28 2017

HGL to HGL

hypno journal 28.III.2017

3/28/17 at 10:25 AM

Evening.

Laid off going to a "popular soup" at a Church. As I sat under a tree, I tried to "go down deep", but did NOT succeed to shut out the sounds.

I started a composition, and chose sth like rag time or so as general style (under the sonata or sonatina form and "irregular" bar groups).

Night.

Found a place to sleep. Felt the stench of old cigarette smoke, somewhat feebly. Did not move.

Counted down (me counting, Katherine Anne's face floating above like the face of the Cheshire cat and adding "you go to sleep now" every time), cannot recall getting down to 60.

Both evening and night I had started over a few times, while losing track of where I was.

Morning.

Woke up in a dream, saw a year number like 813 (which I know in wake life for another reason) and was in my dream wondering about eradication of abortion, how it was progressing.

Touched a hard on, thought better of the idea of wanking, desisted, tried to think of sth else, like the dream.

In reality, it was of course outlawed in Charlemagne's Empire anyway, since Constantine had outlawed it.

Considered that while still awake and wondered if reeradication might have proven necessary in the recently conquered Saxon territories.

Saw it was still dark, concluded it was still night, started a countdown again, but got down to 50 and below, and even after some drifting off now and again reached 1. This time the suggestion had been "you go to sleep now for a short time".

When I had reached one, I "let her" do that kind of "count up" (without counting. I did feel refreshed and it was getting light. Had the morning countdown been a power nap, or had I drifted off to minutes or hours of real sleep between the resuming of counting? I don't know.
The hard on was gone. Without wanking. Thank God.

Plan.

Shall I be able to keep OFF hypno journal (except this)?

Daydreams.

Daydreamed about meeting her.

KA: "you might want to look into my eyes"
HGL: "already? I thought we were going to talk first."

Ending A (yes, daydream recurred with two endings)

KA: "I already read your blogs, and know what you want"
HGL: "fine, I am yours under God" (sign of a cross) "go ahead and zonk me out"

Ending B
Dialogue ensuing on what I did want and what I did not want.

Ending C

KA: "look at the time"
HGL: [notices it is 10 am]
KA: "we already did, I already zonked you out"
HGL: "fine, I am yours under God" (sign of a cross) "go ahead and zonk me out again"

Content of dialogue (not given, not recalled in perfect detail) being basically that if she wanted to impose things on me that OTHERS wanted for me, that was not OK. Not unless she had verified I wanted it myself.

In actual fact, what I do want is getting more REM sleep, more restrained erections, more of my alpha state fix from prayer - all of which per se are things I don't need hypnotherapy for.

BUT if someone were to get me doing my research this style or that style or considering this or considering that or being open to this or that kind of audience, while hypnosis would not be my choice for myself, I would feel OK with it if it was imposed ... by Katherine Anne.

I would NOT want to have hypnotic adventures like this (hypno binges, I called the one in 2014) to continue to distract me every time I was getting a bit insisting when courting a girl, or every time someone would want to use this as an excuse of pretending I was reevaluating everything I had been saying on my blogs or that I might be ashamed of them being known.

IN fact, other thing where I don't have false shame and don't want that of others to interfere : I want to marry a girl well younger than myself, since that is where fertility is. An old maid my age is not fertile, a divorcee is not licit to marry and I would not want to speculate on the tragedies of others. And even a widow my age would be more into the children she had after someone else than into making more of them with me.

VI Frozen With Hypnosis

Frozen With Hypnosis
katherineanne83
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Z7i_ohyXXLo

My comments

I wonder, has Brian been able to get on with his comic book - or has his creativity been sacrificed on your curiosity of having a good subject? If he did get on with his comic book, I'd like to see proof of that, like a link to Amazon ... And I am starting to feel somewhat happy not having a home, just in case the offers for one were meant for you to gt an opportunity to take me under for 24 hours or more ... I have received some.

[Offers of getting a house, that is]

Brian Michael Bendis - not the guy, see photo.

Bryan Johnson - not the guy, see photo.

Brian Stelfreeze - not the guy, definitely see photo.

Brian K. Vaughan - not the guy, see photo.

Could it be Brian Quinn? Photo looks a bit like it?

https://www.reddit.com/r/tesdcares/comments/33vjho/the_tesd_weeklies_episode_243_brian_quinn_time/

If so, of course, he changed from glasses to lenses?

III Continuing Journal March 27 2017

HGL to HGL

KA, starting monday 27.III.2017

3/27/17 at 9:17 AM

Monday 27.III

Leaving out some torrid stuff, since Katherine Anne could be married (that might be one reason why she stopped making the videos).

Yesterday evening in a laundry, I used this "self" induction, "day dreaming" about her:

KA : you go down the stairs, I am counting 1 ... 2 and 3 ... etc to 10.

Which I imagined doing.

Then, this:

Me : 100
KA : You go to sleep now
Me : 99
KA : You go to sleep now
Me : 98
KA : You go to sleep now ...

I don't recall coming down to 70, and I was woken up so must have slept.

Finding a new place, I reused the latter several times over, since people were coming and going.

This morning I tried to reuse it, but thought the better of it after verifying it really was morning.

Since then, on and off, suffering some sleepiness, including a kind of hypnotic hangover, image of KA recurring and me shaking it off (or trying to) as if trying to shake off sleepiness. Can relate to certain scenes in The Silver Chair - lady of the Green Kirtle obviously having abused hypnosis, and Rilian obviously having a similar physical sensation.

Should I see a hypno video with someone else as an antidote or let it happen? (written 9:12 and I woke somewhat before 7 sth after regaining sleep between 22:30 and midnight, not sure when).

Anyway, trying to leave off looking at her video today.

C. S. Lewis must have had some experience with hypnosis, since he could both accurately describe shaking off a hypnotic hangover in the Silver Chair and programming to wake up later as Tirian did in The Last Battle. That one I tried yesterday morning, was trying to get down 7:45 - 55 sth and hoping to wake up 8:30. Went down after 8:05 and woke up 8:25 - refreshed for the next hour, but it did not stop the sleep lag from tiring me down as to disability in conversation or tiredness from listening to that of others.

Above mentioned nap for the night was not the sole nap yesterday after that, I took one in the afternoon as well. Hypnotically, so as to get some rest, or at least tried to.

3/27/17 at 10:06 AM

10:06 still fighting a kind of hypnotic hangover ...

3/27/17 at 11:26 AM

11:25 and still KA hovering above my eyelids, from time to time while I do other things - tonight, IF I do autohypnosis, the suggestion will be fortified by hours of preparation, it would be ending a fight of hours, not of just two minutes, to give in ...

3/27/17 at 11:58 AM

11:55 feeling fairly irritated at:

• drooping eyelids
• feeling half horny
• Katherine Anne's face popping up in my mind (even she in her bad mood)
• AND me being in a public library where I can't give in!

I recall that tactic of her suggesting to Brian he feels guilt and frustration at not being completely zonked out all the 24 hours ... frustration works as an enforcement of suggestions, I am "afraid" (not that I don't enjoy it, and yes, here KA's face snickering sweetly)

3/27/17 at 12:27 PM

12:22 Doggedly struggling on, soothing the pain of not- giving in by imagining how sweet it will be to give in tonight.

If I get to it.

Reflecting why marriage is better than chocolate and heaven is better than hypnosis.

When you are in bed with husband or wife (I imagine), and say "can I have some more", you will not be sad to hear "me too".

When you are obeying God in Heaven, and enjoying that, you are not fearing that who you are obeying will become an idol separating you from God and damning you.

And now, not married, not having chocolate since it is a monday in Lent and outside my meals, not being hypnotised since in a library and even so being wake hypnotised by enforcing hypnotic pre-induction with every time I nudge finger onto side of nose or every struggle I have to go through, I notice that I have other things to do and they do not quite take my mind off this going over and over again through my mind ...

3/27/17 at 12:40 PM

12:39 done with what I was doing, thinking of going out and taking a sleep ... or perhaps just out and take a coffee, sparing possible hypnotic bliss for later.

[Sparing = saving, I'm Swedish and in Swedish and German the word for "save" except when it means rescue is "spara"/"sparen".]

3/27/17 at 1:11 PM

13:10 probably spent most of half hour since then watching parts and clips of hypnosis videos ... sound off.

Trying to avoid KA, but not quite succeeding.

3/27/17 at 2:01 PM

AND at 13:59, I have been reading answers on quora about hypnosis and selecting videos to watch later ...

Creative Life, Kelli von Heydekampf, Guided Meditation & Sleep Hypnosis Talkdown with Michelle: A Day At The Beach ... not to mention quora, of course.

You see why back in 2014 I labelled this kind of thing a hypno binge?

3/27/17 at 3:04 PM

Wondering how many Pentecostal "things" (not always labelled as miracle, but often as deliverance) have something to do with a hypnotic preparation.

Thank God that that is NOT what I am building my faith on, and hope whoever is concerned has better intellectual reasons for Christianity than such experiences.

3/27/17 at 4:25 PM

By the way, this night also, not a trace of dreaming, as in sleep dreaming, of KA meeting me on street or hypnotising me.

Did some looking over psalms and it seems not only were Medieval monks praying them in an alpha state, but the psalmists themselves were doing so.

Happy he who feareth the Lord?

I saw a hypno video in which subjects were thoroughly fearful of the hypnohammer - and thoroughly happy when it hit them.

Happiness in heaven and a state of grace while on earth are at least related to the smile of a hypnotic subject.

3/27/17 at 4:27 PM

And yes, what I wanted to write now was sth else, this thing is a bit distracting.

Here we go.

We dream about things we have habits of attending to at night. One thing I dreamt about this night was timelines overlapping with each other, dynasties or whatever, and centuries going from Christ to c. 913 AD or sth.

That should tell you one of my interests, and I could have been dreaming about Yngling dynasty or sth starting way up North with Odin and Frey a little before the Birth of Christ.

3/27/17 at 5:35 PM

17:34 still more hypno videos ...

3/27/17 at 6:43 PM

18:42 at least not feeling drooping eyelids the last hours ... but of course getting familiar with other triggers.

Now

for message IV