XXXIII - 10 - 12.X.2019

Words under a video are my comments on it, unless in italics, and words under anything else are what I am telling you. Numbers under a video are minutes and seconds.

Thursd. 10.X.2019

evening

Total Relaxation Hypnosis 2 (Text)
Stephanie Dillon | 14.VIII.2014
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_qIxyCB_wlk

7:59

Night 10-11.X.2019

When going to sleep, around 21 - 22, I used suggestions by Dillon to get real deep and after perhaps half an hour or an hour, I was asleep. (This could be an illusion of time seeming shorter than it really was).

After going to pee in the middle of the night, I got back to sleep easily, but was a bit in a lag when woken up at 7:35.

Frid. 11.X.2019

morning

Hypnotic Induction 1 (Text)
Stephanie Dillon | 10.VIII.2014
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dq-IwoffsBw

5:59

I like this video (both commenting and liking here, since I don't want to withdraw the like already given).

Frid. 11.X.2019

evening

twice:
What Does Hypnosis Feel Like?
Theta Spring Hypnosis | 13.X.2014
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dE9sgtZadu4

2*5:38

Thank you!

Took a "second bite" - even better (knew what way to cut the lemon beforehand this time)

You might like to read a bit on my "hypno journal".

https://hgl-hypno-journal.blogspot.com/2017/03/i-katherine-anne-interactive-induction.html

You might also want to read the mail I just sent you.

Apprendre l'auto-hypnose
Doctissimo | 21 juin 2014
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0uMM5mjcp1I

Saw of a total 19:33 up to c. 6:45.

Complete Relaxation Session (Text)
Stephanie Dillon | 18.VIII.2014
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Zu4eAmugZ8M

11:59

I give the video a thumbs up and subscribe after first unsubscribing and cancelling, so I can follow the instruction.

OK, music was very relaxing, and I had already had one of your videos this morning (it is evening now) and one yesterday, so, despite noise, I could kind of feel "the pull" all way through, and even relax and forget about the guys trying to disturb me (if intentional) in the cyber.

It really does feel good to follow your words, and I hope I will again feel as good about praying the rosary.

And protraction over 12 minutes does help to deepen the experience, though one problem, I was "draining the bath tub" near bottom before you said half way down.

When I really did reach bottom, I recalled bath tub insides after draining after long baths. Real, confortable part of my childhood.

Fractionation Hypnosis for Calmness
Alicia Fairclough | 5.VIII.2014
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=16fpSw0O6NI

11:10

Exellent fractionation hypnosis.

Had one just before from Stephanie Dillon, so, a fine compensation for a week that was harrassing ....

Excellent, I mean of course. [corrected next day]

Night

11-12.X.2019

I went out after midnight from the cyber and found a place to sleep around 1.

On the way I hoped Christ would preserve me from wanking, since I thought it was another Marian Feast, the one for the delivery of Vienna in 1683. Though I wondered why two came on consecutive days, the session I came out from starting at 21:05 or sth in 11.X, Maternity of the Blessed Virgin Mary, and so there would be another right next day.

To sleep, I said? Not quite, I was woken up at least twice by people just before going to sleep, so the trance state was prolonged for over an hour. Including prayer.

I also wanked, which is one reason I keep this journal "adult content" (13+), and i suppose I was off guard by relaxation, which means by refusing the mortal sin ordinarily, I make my body crave hypnosis as a roundabout means to getting an orgasm, which, if I were married, I could get usually without sin. I would also be getting trance by prayer, Rosary, as a peaceful life would allow me to say "as we forgive those who trespass against us" (the Our Father is part of the Rosary).

Going back to "sleep" took a longer part of trance this time, even if shorter than before, due to wanking.

When I woke up at 6:22, someone getting out, I would have been horribly tired (and nearly was anyway) if trance hadn't been replacing sleep as if in a concentrate.

Satd. 12.X.2019

morning

Interactive Induction
katherineanne83 | 24.XII.2011 (25.XII.2011?)
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ik-1-7Z6QDI

6:28

Les commentaires ont été désactivés pour cette vidéo.

It was not a sacrilege on top of sin against nature, the Marian Feast I wanted to keep clean was 12.IX, not 12.X. And therefore also not two consecutive Marian feast days on two consecutive days, which had made me wonder.

Video time

Friday night
2*5:38 + 11:59 + 6:45 + 11:10 = 2*38 + 59 + 45 + 10 = 190 = 3:10
10 + 11 + 6 + 10 + 3:10 = 40:10
Overall
7:59 + 5:59 + 6:28 + 40:10 = 59 + 59 + 28 + 10 = 156 = 2:36
7 + 5 + 6 + 40 + 2:36 = 1:00:36

Now I have less money to spend (none on me) until I can get money out of the bank, I'll probably have finished this, if you will call it so, binge. And I will probably spend some time in trance before going to sleep the days that ensue.

XXIX Back to Stephanie Dillon, a bit

Dillon text 1, again.

Bad environment, had to stop bc someone was coming along to the computers of the cyber, but it did work as a relaxation.

After that I quickly shifted focus.

I came back to second video (Dillon text 2) at the end of the session.

[Full links in post XXII]

Comments under 1

Thank you again!

Comments under 2

Relaxed - somewhat groggy, despite a near row in the cyber at computers beside me.

Dito second time, in a library, despite sn coughing and despite having eaten a bit too much.

Yes, I enjoyed it.

I also had to fight a bit to concentrate on hypnosis despite noises and potential threats of disturbance.

Sharing with others through this post ...

XXIV - even more Stephanie Dillon

Text hypnosis is an asset.

Stephanie Dillon | 14.VIII.2014
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_qIxyCB_wlk

Watched non-ideal conditions, no phones and people walking around ...

Total Relaxation Hypnosis 3 (Text)
Stephanie Dillon | 17.VIII.2014
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DTPb1TZfN34

Watched non-ideal conditions, no phones and people walking around ...

That was previous.

But this one too, and I did not forget ...

XXIII Continuing with text of la Dillon

Total Relaxation Hypnosis 1 (Text)
Stephanie Dillon | 12.VIII.2014
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kouQ7LQUsyM

During/after

"mindless" - hmm - no

But got some nice trance first - except it is a bit of a strain on the eyes to have them open all during it.

And funny enough, after writing above got back to video and into trance again - but won't be here in an hour ...

It's a cyber.

Also, no headphones ...

Next day

As said, I was not acessing internet one hour after the (interrupted, resumed and headphoneless) session. I quit the cyber and did not go back same evening.

I did get down to a meadow where I could potentially enjoy an hour of bliss - actually it was not so much wakeful emptiness and bliss as gliding in and out of trance and when shutting eyes reviewing parts of video - spiral around "sleep now" and so on.

After perhaps an hour, I did feel refreshed and started sewing, I think I did fairly unexpectedly well - the emptiness was not in fact a total emptiness of mind, but a relative emptiness of mind content, opening me to a new solution on sewing.

Alas, later relexation led to self abuse, since not alert enough to resist. Thought of a girl I love (more or less), not of you. But that took some decision.

I reflected more than once, if I loved God's words as much as I took pleasure in yours, yesterday, and today again, I'd be praying very well.

Today, after changing place when begging, I was exhausted by having work too early, and whenever I tended to close my eyes, I was for a moment back in the video.

I think, this is detail enough to show, you did a thorough job, perhaps I'll see video later with headphones, but your text and spiral did some work even without that.

And it was a relief to note that I could break off the video, when it included a suggestion against my conscience.

If ever I do get a hypnotist (though for relaxation a relative who knows it would be fine, and I don't know any therapeutic object beyond compensating stress and lacks of sleep), first thing to ask would be : "has someone recently snapped out of trance because you said sth they felt bad about" - if the answer is "yes" it means they are not taking too strong a hold on the subjects.

Hypnolag - forgot one of the digits of my library card's code, and couldn't connect to looking up the number, which differed on one point.

Update

After weekend:

Each day, going back into trance, not exclusively to your words, but very predominantly, has been kind of a lifeline to get sufficient rest, to cram sufficient repose into too little time for repose.

I also did some other autohypno stuff, including the no eyelids suggestion ...

Considering to watch this again, this evening, but this time with headphones, or to go on to next video.

Rewatching

previous, first:

induction 1

Like again, but won't dislike, so this is both liking and commenting.

induction 2

Liked again but not per button. I watched this time directly after first induction, I feel a little "groggy" and it feels pleasant.

Take this as a like.

And to prevent me from immediately rewatching the first main video, I'm down for a coffee!

Done, might as well say, I am breathing deeper generally, by getting - more than one hour per day - in and out of trance, mainly to your words (and some more, as said).

video 3, see link above

Watched again, and during one hour, I was in good form for debates and for anything that came across.

Including this video:

Why I Left an Evangelical Cult | Dawn Smith | TEDxNatick
TEDx Talks | 6.III.2018
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-U4Cq-dgNnw

What a cult she left - except there is one worse cult, the one called "society in general" ... if anyone hoped seeing this video and recalling a similar childhood would "make me think" - well, no, because I have no very similar childhood to recall.

XXII - Text Hypnosis after Too Little Sleep

Videos by Stephanie Dillon

I

Hypnotic Induction 1 (Text)
Stephanie Dillon | 10.VIII.2014
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dq-IwoffsBw

II

Hypnotic Induction 2 (Text)
Stephanie Dillon | 11.VIII.2014
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=q9Wvxnwl4K4

Watched both,

order II, then I, then II again, after a night with too little sleep in a library where there was no sound, and without headphones.

Comments:

II a

I didn't watch the first video first, only this second.

Less dead tired than before (was subject to sleep privations this night).

I

Saw this after second, noticed the trigger you planted ... and am still tired ...

II b

Watched it again after first ... still tired, but felt nice to be "down" a bit.

And shared with probably more than one person by blogging it:

http://hgl-hypno-journal.blogspot.com/2018/07/xxii-text-hypnosis-after-too-little.html

It can be noted that the hypno blog had been read by 21 from Russia last week, but none from Russia last 24 hours.

Sleep privations may have been planned ...