XXXIV - Correspondence about my situation

Me to Kelli von Heydekampf

10/10/2019 at 1:49 PM

I am homeless, and sometimes I do hypnosis videos to compensate for sleep lag, stress, etc

It seems some guys around me (as I am a blogger, I am very well known) are worried about this.

I believe in lots of stuff unfashionable these days. I am a Geocentric, I believe angels move (not "push", but move) planets and stars, including Sun and Moon in non-daily orbits and ways, while the daily round is God moving the aether around Earth, I believe in fix stars being one light day up (no 13 billion light years away) and therefore smaller than believed by astro-physicists, and obviously no option for life evolving elsewhere before on Earth. I believe all the heavenly bodies were created on day IV 5199 BC, and I believe Christ founded the Roman Catholic Church, not a Protestant one.

These guys seem to think I can only keep these beliefs up by being hypnitised by people, they want to deliver me from the sect that is keeping me down, and so, often they actually disturb silence, connection, relative loneliness when I am taking a hypno session in a cyber or a library.

They think they are saving me from a sect using hypnosis to make me believe "weird things".

Now, your hypno videos I just passed by some year ago, I also do katherine anne, Alicia Fairclough, some Stephanie Dillon (text, I don't really like the sound of weird distorted voice*).

I stopped doing "the one lilium" (a Danish asmr) over one of her sessions involving the subject discovering he's walking on the water ... "wait a minute, I'm neither Jesus nor St Peter and this is not Genesareth".

I discard some of Alicia's when it comes to forgetting name, being enchanted by Ice Queen, forgetting number 7, floating outside the body. When those things come up, I snap out of it.

Dito with "slave hypnosis".

So, as you are a somewhat expert on hypnosis, and probably also a very qualified and certified one, a person who people are going to and getting your bills paid by insurances, and so (like when they stop smoking) and as you probably do not believe very many of the things I just enumerated, would you assess that they are right on their risk assessment, I believe "weird things" because the videos I watch include subtle suggestions for those particular points of view, or would you consider they are:

• 1) somewhat hysteric (if I assess the intentionality of disturbances correctly)
• 2) and simply wrong on what is happening with me?

Hans Georg Lundahl

Kelli von Heydekampf to me

10/15/2019 at 3:03 PM

I am homeless, and sometimes I do hypnosis videos to compensate for sleep lag, stress, etc

Hi Hans-Georg,
I don't believe that there is something "wrong" with anyone. It is simply a question of how you are showing up in your life and are you functioning to the degree that is appropriate for you. Judgments of being "hysterical" are relevant to each person differenently so I am not qualified to determine any of this. These are questions that need to be answered by you as it pertains to you functioning in your life. I use hypnosis to help people show up in more beneficial ways once they determine that something is no longer working for them. Hope this helps. Take care.

Yours Kindly,
Kelli von Heydekampf
Professional Hypnotist
West Metro Hypnosis
www.westmetrohypnosis.com
952-222-3975



Imagination is more important than knowledge. --Albert Einstein

Me to Kelli von Heydekampf

10/15/2019 at 4:00 PM

I am homeless, and sometimes I do hypnosis videos to compensate for sleep lag, stress, etc

thank you!

you would include compensation for lost sleep, on occasion, or calming down from stress?

Kelli von Heydekampf to me

10/15/2019 at 4:06 PM

I am homeless, and sometimes I do hypnosis videos to compensate for sleep lag, stress, etc

Not sure I fully understand your question....
Yours Kindly, [etc]

Me to Kelli von Heydekampf

10/15/2019 at 6:25 PM

I am homeless, and sometimes I do hypnosis videos to compensate for sleep lag, stress, etc

• 1) I am homeless, this means I have to deal with some sleeplag after nights when I was thrown out from where I was sleeping, and there are other reasons (like having too little sleep need when waking up after a meal towards the evening);
• 2) It also means, some people are not totally congenial to me and some situations remind of things that stress me, like psychiatry and being locked up;
• 3) so, dealing with sleep lag and stress, like by relaxation or power nap videos, would it seem not too inappropriate?
• 4) AND, if I use the videos of Alicia Fairclough, or katherine anne 83 or Stephanie Dillon and someone worried I was hypnotised into a sect, would you consider their worry realistic?

Kelli von Heydekampf to me

10/15/2019 at 7:22 PM

I am homeless, and sometimes I do hypnosis videos to compensate for sleep lag, stress, etc

I think using hypnosis to feel better and for your well being is perfectly fine. Many people do the same thing. As far as the names you mentioned, I am not familiar with them and therefore cannot comment on anything about that. I can't really comment on the last part of the question because I have no way of knowing if this worry has any merit. Generally speaking I believe that you cannot be hypnotized against your will. Hope this helps.
Yours Kindly, [etc]

Me to Kelli von Heydekampf

10/16/2019 at 7:27 AM

I am homeless, and sometimes I do hypnosis videos to compensate for sleep lag, stress, etc

"I think using hypnosis to feel better and for your well being is perfectly fine. Many people do the same thing."

Thank you.

"As far as the names you mentioned, I am not familiar with them and therefore cannot comment on anything about that."

Well, you could check them out on their youtubes.

Stephanie Dillon (with her text hypnosis it is safest to take her, as I am not closing eyes and so not show I'm being hypnotosed to whatever cyber owner etc could be worried):
https://www.youtube.com/channel/UC1IrC9RPr0vc5B7TFHk7jUA

katherine anne 83 (a disciple of Cerbone, I think, if that name is familiar):
https://www.youtube.com/user/katherineanne83

Alicia Fairclough
https://www.youtube.com/user/MyOnlineHypno

To make it very simple : on her video about Past Life Regressions (she's not providing videos for them, she said she had one such session once), she says she is atheist and ... well, the kind of cult that would be (on the worries of certain people) abusing hypnosis against me would be more into Young Earth Creationism, Geocentrism, Rad Trad Catholicism ...

* This is not the case with all of her voice videos.

XXXIII - 10 - 12.X.2019

Words under a video are my comments on it, unless in italics, and words under anything else are what I am telling you. Numbers under a video are minutes and seconds.

Thursd. 10.X.2019

evening

Total Relaxation Hypnosis 2 (Text)
Stephanie Dillon | 14.VIII.2014
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_qIxyCB_wlk

7:59

Night 10-11.X.2019

When going to sleep, around 21 - 22, I used suggestions by Dillon to get real deep and after perhaps half an hour or an hour, I was asleep. (This could be an illusion of time seeming shorter than it really was).

After going to pee in the middle of the night, I got back to sleep easily, but was a bit in a lag when woken up at 7:35.

Frid. 11.X.2019

morning

Hypnotic Induction 1 (Text)
Stephanie Dillon | 10.VIII.2014
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dq-IwoffsBw

5:59

I like this video (both commenting and liking here, since I don't want to withdraw the like already given).

Frid. 11.X.2019

evening

twice:
What Does Hypnosis Feel Like?
Theta Spring Hypnosis | 13.X.2014
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dE9sgtZadu4

2*5:38

Thank you!

Took a "second bite" - even better (knew what way to cut the lemon beforehand this time)

You might like to read a bit on my "hypno journal".

https://hgl-hypno-journal.blogspot.com/2017/03/i-katherine-anne-interactive-induction.html

You might also want to read the mail I just sent you.

Apprendre l'auto-hypnose
Doctissimo | 21 juin 2014
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0uMM5mjcp1I

Saw of a total 19:33 up to c. 6:45.

Complete Relaxation Session (Text)
Stephanie Dillon | 18.VIII.2014
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Zu4eAmugZ8M

11:59

I give the video a thumbs up and subscribe after first unsubscribing and cancelling, so I can follow the instruction.

OK, music was very relaxing, and I had already had one of your videos this morning (it is evening now) and one yesterday, so, despite noise, I could kind of feel "the pull" all way through, and even relax and forget about the guys trying to disturb me (if intentional) in the cyber.

It really does feel good to follow your words, and I hope I will again feel as good about praying the rosary.

And protraction over 12 minutes does help to deepen the experience, though one problem, I was "draining the bath tub" near bottom before you said half way down.

When I really did reach bottom, I recalled bath tub insides after draining after long baths. Real, confortable part of my childhood.

Fractionation Hypnosis for Calmness
Alicia Fairclough | 5.VIII.2014
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=16fpSw0O6NI

11:10

Exellent fractionation hypnosis.

Had one just before from Stephanie Dillon, so, a fine compensation for a week that was harrassing ....

Excellent, I mean of course. [corrected next day]

Night

11-12.X.2019

I went out after midnight from the cyber and found a place to sleep around 1.

On the way I hoped Christ would preserve me from wanking, since I thought it was another Marian Feast, the one for the delivery of Vienna in 1683. Though I wondered why two came on consecutive days, the session I came out from starting at 21:05 or sth in 11.X, Maternity of the Blessed Virgin Mary, and so there would be another right next day.

To sleep, I said? Not quite, I was woken up at least twice by people just before going to sleep, so the trance state was prolonged for over an hour. Including prayer.

I also wanked, which is one reason I keep this journal "adult content" (13+), and i suppose I was off guard by relaxation, which means by refusing the mortal sin ordinarily, I make my body crave hypnosis as a roundabout means to getting an orgasm, which, if I were married, I could get usually without sin. I would also be getting trance by prayer, Rosary, as a peaceful life would allow me to say "as we forgive those who trespass against us" (the Our Father is part of the Rosary).

Going back to "sleep" took a longer part of trance this time, even if shorter than before, due to wanking.

When I woke up at 6:22, someone getting out, I would have been horribly tired (and nearly was anyway) if trance hadn't been replacing sleep as if in a concentrate.

Satd. 12.X.2019

morning

Interactive Induction
katherineanne83 | 24.XII.2011 (25.XII.2011?)
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ik-1-7Z6QDI

6:28

Les commentaires ont été désactivés pour cette vidéo.

It was not a sacrilege on top of sin against nature, the Marian Feast I wanted to keep clean was 12.IX, not 12.X. And therefore also not two consecutive Marian feast days on two consecutive days, which had made me wonder.

Video time

Friday night
2*5:38 + 11:59 + 6:45 + 11:10 = 2*38 + 59 + 45 + 10 = 190 = 3:10
10 + 11 + 6 + 10 + 3:10 = 40:10
Overall
7:59 + 5:59 + 6:28 + 40:10 = 59 + 59 + 28 + 10 = 156 = 2:36
7 + 5 + 6 + 40 + 2:36 = 1:00:36

Now I have less money to spend (none on me) until I can get money out of the bank, I'll probably have finished this, if you will call it so, binge. And I will probably spend some time in trance before going to sleep the days that ensue.

XXXII : Three Things on Trope Talk Amnesia, Including one Hypno-Related

Trope Talk: Amnesia
Overly Sarcastic Productions | 20.IX.2019
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DK2lfUg-fGE

I

I went over your examples as given in description:

"EXAMPLES USED (in rough order of first appearance): Transformers Prime (Orion Pax p.1), Death Note, Blindspot, Doctor Who (Utopia), Legend of Zelda: Breath of the Wild, Captain Marvel, Batman: The Animated Series (Forgotten), The Iron Giant, Frozen, She-Ra (Remember), Harry Potter and the Chamber of Secrets, Young Justice (Bereft), Wall-E, Gravity Falls (finale), Fullmetal Alchemist: Brotherhood, Wreck-It Ralph, Captain America: The Winter Soldier"

How about this one?

https://www.asterix.com/en/the-collection/albums/asterix-and-the-big-fight/

I think the amnesia was well studied not just limited to plot needs and I think the plot twist was in Goscinny very much not just annoying.

Obviously, the way amnesia ended there may have been wrong ....

Wait ... I think the Druid got out of amnesia before that second menhir.

He accidentally got to a potion removing amnesia, so that part isn't correct, since there are no such drugs, but for one, his potions are fantastic in effect anyway, so one more unrealistic potion doesn't matter too much, and for another, it was the sixties and in the optimism back then, one thought amnesia could one day be actively cured, no doubt.

However, it is at least neither clean nor leaving the affected "sexy"

AND it was made pretty clear that Obelix' idea of a second head trauma was not a good idea.

Never mind that a real menhir thrown with that kind of force would have killed a real person.

II

7:44 I am actually missing one type of amnesia treated here : hypnotic amnesia.

Hypnosis could neatly remove one single chunk of a memory as long as the post-hypnotic effects last, if about memories before hypnosis, or for that matter, prevent forming of a memory from some events during the hypnosis.

III

11:08 You are saying, amnesia has no rules, really no way to know what to expect, while, for instance superpowers do very much have rules?

Interesting. Reminds me of an Atheist meme about one reason to reject God (either overall or when doing science):

With God - they'd say - anything could happen, there are no rules at all. I e, they think the Christian God being real would be like living in a world where amnesia has the fictional ramifications.

While a Christian thinks, though God is definitely not a superhero (that's more the style of Pagan gods who are mythically based on mainly angels, demons and nephelim / divinised heros), Godhood is parallel to superpowers in so far as it involves there being a code. God being very powerful, indeed all powerful, but there are some things He won't do, like Superman will not crash into Twin Towers, like Batman won't go on stage dancing lambada and so on ...

XXXI Three Reactions to one Stephanie Dillon Video (Text)

Total Relaxation Hypnosis 2 (Text)
Stephanie Dillon | 14.VIII.2014
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_qIxyCB_wlk

I

1 year ago

Watched non-ideal conditions, no phones and people walking around ...

II

6 months ago

Hour's up. Watched videos and wrote a piece which took some patience after a blunder, but no big passion in conceiving the post:

Recipes from Home and Abroad : Getting a logo or URL for a poster the right distance of letters.
https://recipesfromhomeandabroad.blogspot.com/2019/01/getting-logo-or-url-for-poster-right.html

I can add, first ten to twenty minutes I felt slightly as if still in trance, and it certainly contributed to my patience

I feel like getting back to hypnosis and sneak peeking on words of your non-text ones ...

Actually got sleepy after even the sneek peeks and a little more video grazing ...

III

2 days ago

one hour

spent it in a cyber, so not totally calm, but ... well, hung around a few hypno videos, discarded "suggested options" that "weren't for me", spent some time doing other things, like seeing a reaction, like watching news - not getting too upset, even at fairly horrifying things (Epstein's supposed "suicide")

it's a bit disconcerting how, as people try to sabotage my hypnosis in cybers, I enter easier and easier despite noise ... and I don't feel worried, though maybe I should be

I watched the video once again, it was better:

• 1) less noise around
• 2) had the first "sleep now" bring a state close to the relaxation at "ten" the time before, so it really got deeper and more soothing

only drawback - can't stay here, need to pay and go, so can't stay the hour where I am

I can add for that hour, being calm really helped to make a good impression while I was begging with my cardboard of a url. And being questioned on whether I was writing something illicit, which I was, basically, not.

XXX - Threat (here instead of main blog, due to adult content)

I think this email is kind of funny, for which I am giving some details by screenshots:



Noted the email?

<moira515@d.an0nym0us-hacked.ml>

.ml = Mali.

But the fun part is : I have not masturbated in front of any videos, since I watch those in libraries and cybers, where also videos with young teens in porn situations would quickly be turned off, and I don't have any bitcoin account to send the guy any from.

The Mali part is, not really fun, but sad.

It's sad people in Mali can invest time hating a guy they invent stories about. Or even if the sentiment isn't hate but more like "we feel sorry for the fool, but we'd like to get some money from him even so". Supposing the owner gave an email account with adress corresponding to his country.

Hans Georg Lundahl
Nanterre UL
St. Vincent, Deacon and Martyr
22.I.2019

XXIX Back to Stephanie Dillon, a bit

Dillon text 1, again.

Bad environment, had to stop bc someone was coming along to the computers of the cyber, but it did work as a relaxation.

After that I quickly shifted focus.

I came back to second video (Dillon text 2) at the end of the session.

[Full links in post XXII]

Comments under 1

Thank you again!

Comments under 2

Relaxed - somewhat groggy, despite a near row in the cyber at computers beside me.

Dito second time, in a library, despite sn coughing and despite having eaten a bit too much.

Yes, I enjoyed it.

I also had to fight a bit to concentrate on hypnosis despite noises and potential threats of disturbance.

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