Sunday, 20 October 2019

XXXIV - Correspondence about my situation


Me to Kelli von Heydekampf
10/10/2019 at 1:49 PM
I am homeless, and sometimes I do hypnosis videos to compensate for sleep lag, stress, etc
It seems some guys around me (as I am a blogger, I am very well known) are worried about this.

I believe in lots of stuff unfashionable these days. I am a Geocentric, I believe angels move (not "push", but move) planets and stars, including Sun and Moon in non-daily orbits and ways, while the daily round is God moving the aether around Earth, I believe in fix stars being one light day up (no 13 billion light years away) and therefore smaller than believed by astro-physicists, and obviously no option for life evolving elsewhere before on Earth. I believe all the heavenly bodies were created on day IV 5199 BC, and I believe Christ founded the Roman Catholic Church, not a Protestant one.

These guys seem to think I can only keep these beliefs up by being hypnitised by people, they want to deliver me from the sect that is keeping me down, and so, often they actually disturb silence, connection, relative loneliness when I am taking a hypno session in a cyber or a library.

They think they are saving me from a sect using hypnosis to make me believe "weird things".

Now, your hypno videos I just passed by some year ago, I also do katherine anne, Alicia Fairclough, some Stephanie Dillon (text, I don't really like the sound of weird distorted voice*).

I stopped doing "the one lilium" (a Danish asmr) over one of her sessions involving the subject discovering he's walking on the water ... "wait a minute, I'm neither Jesus nor St Peter and this is not Genesareth".

I discard some of Alicia's when it comes to forgetting name, being enchanted by Ice Queen, forgetting number 7, floating outside the body. When those things come up, I snap out of it.

Dito with "slave hypnosis".

So, as you are a somewhat expert on hypnosis, and probably also a very qualified and certified one, a person who people are going to and getting your bills paid by insurances, and so (like when they stop smoking) and as you probably do not believe very many of the things I just enumerated, would you assess that they are right on their risk assessment, I believe "weird things" because the videos I watch include subtle suggestions for those particular points of view, or would you consider they are:

  • 1) somewhat hysteric (if I assess the intentionality of disturbances correctly)
  • 2) and simply wrong on what is happening with me?


Hans Georg Lundahl

Kelli von Heydekampf to me
10/15/2019 at 3:03 PM
I am homeless, and sometimes I do hypnosis videos to compensate for sleep lag, stress, etc
Hi Hans-Georg,
I don't believe that there is something "wrong" with anyone. It is simply a question of how you are showing up in your life and are you functioning to the degree that is appropriate for you. Judgments of being "hysterical" are relevant to each person differenently so I am not qualified to determine any of this. These are questions that need to be answered by you as it pertains to you functioning in your life. I use hypnosis to help people show up in more beneficial ways once they determine that something is no longer working for them. Hope this helps. Take care.

Yours Kindly,
Kelli von Heydekampf
Professional Hypnotist
West Metro Hypnosis
www.westmetrohypnosis.com
952-222-3975



Imagination is more important than knowledge. --Albert Einstein


Me to Kelli von Heydekampf
10/15/2019 at 4:00 PM
I am homeless, and sometimes I do hypnosis videos to compensate for sleep lag, stress, etc
thank you!

you would include compensation for lost sleep, on occasion, or calming down from stress?


Kelli von Heydekampf to me
10/15/2019 at 4:06 PM
I am homeless, and sometimes I do hypnosis videos to compensate for sleep lag, stress, etc
Not sure I fully understand your question....
Yours Kindly, [etc]


Me to Kelli von Heydekampf
10/15/2019 at 6:25 PM
I am homeless, and sometimes I do hypnosis videos to compensate for sleep lag, stress, etc
  • 1) I am homeless, this means I have to deal with some sleeplag after nights when I was thrown out from where I was sleeping, and there are other reasons (like having too little sleep need when waking up after a meal towards the evening);
  • 2) It also means, some people are not totally congenial to me and some situations remind of things that stress me, like psychiatry and being locked up;
  • 3) so, dealing with sleep lag and stress, like by relaxation or power nap videos, would it seem not too inappropriate?
  • 4) AND, if I use the videos of Alicia Fairclough, or katherine anne 83 or Stephanie Dillon and someone worried I was hypnotised into a sect, would you consider their worry realistic?



Kelli von Heydekampf to me
10/15/2019 at 7:22 PM
I am homeless, and sometimes I do hypnosis videos to compensate for sleep lag, stress, etc
I think using hypnosis to feel better and for your well being is perfectly fine. Many people do the same thing. As far as the names you mentioned, I am not familiar with them and therefore cannot comment on anything about that. I can't really comment on the last part of the question because I have no way of knowing if this worry has any merit. Generally speaking I believe that you cannot be hypnotized against your will. Hope this helps.
Yours Kindly, [etc]


Me to Kelli von Heydekampf
10/16/2019 at 7:27 AM
I am homeless, and sometimes I do hypnosis videos to compensate for sleep lag, stress, etc
"I think using hypnosis to feel better and for your well being is perfectly fine. Many people do the same thing."

Thank you.

"As far as the names you mentioned, I am not familiar with them and therefore cannot comment on anything about that."

Well, you could check them out on their youtubes.

Stephanie Dillon (with her text hypnosis it is safest to take her, as I am not closing eyes and so not show I'm being hypnotosed to whatever cyber owner etc could be worried):
https://www.youtube.com/channel/UC1IrC9RPr0vc5B7TFHk7jUA

katherine anne 83 (a disciple of Cerbone, I think, if that name is familiar):
https://www.youtube.com/user/katherineanne83

Alicia Fairclough
https://www.youtube.com/user/MyOnlineHypno

To make it very simple : on her video about Past Life Regressions (she's not providing videos for them, she said she had one such session once), she says she is atheist and ... well, the kind of cult that would be (on the worries of certain people) abusing hypnosis against me would be more into Young Earth Creationism, Geocentrism, Rad Trad Catholicism ...



* This is not the case with all of her voice videos.

Saturday, 12 October 2019

XXXIII - 10 - 12.X.2019


Words under a video are my comments on it, unless in italics, and words under anything else are what I am telling you. Numbers under a video are minutes and seconds.

Thursd. 10.X.2019
evening

Total Relaxation Hypnosis 2 (Text)
Stephanie Dillon | 14.VIII.2014
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_qIxyCB_wlk


7:59

Night 10-11.X.2019
When going to sleep, around 21 - 22, I used suggestions by Dillon to get real deep and after perhaps half an hour or an hour, I was asleep. (This could be an illusion of time seeming shorter than it really was).

After going to pee in the middle of the night, I got back to sleep easily, but was a bit in a lag when woken up at 7:35.

Frid. 11.X.2019
morning

Hypnotic Induction 1 (Text)
Stephanie Dillon | 10.VIII.2014
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dq-IwoffsBw


5:59

I like this video (both commenting and liking here, since I don't want to withdraw the like already given).

Frid. 11.X.2019
evening

twice:
What Does Hypnosis Feel Like?
Theta Spring Hypnosis | 13.X.2014
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dE9sgtZadu4


2*5:38

Thank you!

Took a "second bite" - even better (knew what way to cut the lemon beforehand this time)

You might like to read a bit on my "hypno journal".

https://hgl-hypno-journal.blogspot.com/2017/03/i-katherine-anne-interactive-induction.html

You might also want to read the mail I just sent you.

Apprendre l'auto-hypnose
Doctissimo | 21 juin 2014
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0uMM5mjcp1I


Saw of a total 19:33 up to c. 6:45.

Complete Relaxation Session (Text)
Stephanie Dillon | 18.VIII.2014
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Zu4eAmugZ8M


11:59

I give the video a thumbs up and subscribe after first unsubscribing and cancelling, so I can follow the instruction.

OK, music was very relaxing, and I had already had one of your videos this morning (it is evening now) and one yesterday, so, despite noise, I could kind of feel "the pull" all way through, and even relax and forget about the guys trying to disturb me (if intentional) in the cyber.

It really does feel good to follow your words, and I hope I will again feel as good about praying the rosary.

And protraction over 12 minutes does help to deepen the experience, though one problem, I was "draining the bath tub" near bottom before you said half way down.

When I really did reach bottom, I recalled bath tub insides after draining after long baths. Real, confortable part of my childhood.

Fractionation Hypnosis for Calmness
Alicia Fairclough | 5.VIII.2014
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=16fpSw0O6NI


11:10

Exellent fractionation hypnosis.

Had one just before from Stephanie Dillon, so, a fine compensation for a week that was harrassing ....

Excellent, I mean of course. [corrected next day]

Night
11-12.X.2019

I went out after midnight from the cyber and found a place to sleep around 1.

On the way I hoped Christ would preserve me from wanking, since I thought it was another Marian Feast, the one for the delivery of Vienna in 1683. Though I wondered why two came on consecutive days, the session I came out from starting at 21:05 or sth in 11.X, Maternity of the Blessed Virgin Mary, and so there would be another right next day.

To sleep, I said? Not quite, I was woken up at least twice by people just before going to sleep, so the trance state was prolonged for over an hour. Including prayer.

I also wanked, which is one reason I keep this journal "adult content" (13+), and i suppose I was off guard by relaxation, which means by refusing the mortal sin ordinarily, I make my body crave hypnosis as a roundabout means to getting an orgasm, which, if I were married, I could get usually without sin. I would also be getting trance by prayer, Rosary, as a peaceful life would allow me to say "as we forgive those who trespass against us" (the Our Father is part of the Rosary).

Going back to "sleep" took a longer part of trance this time, even if shorter than before, due to wanking.

When I woke up at 6:22, someone getting out, I would have been horribly tired (and nearly was anyway) if trance hadn't been replacing sleep as if in a concentrate.

Satd. 12.X.2019
morning

Interactive Induction
katherineanne83 | 24.XII.2011 (25.XII.2011?)
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ik-1-7Z6QDI


6:28

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It was not a sacrilege on top of sin against nature, the Marian Feast I wanted to keep clean was 12.IX, not 12.X. And therefore also not two consecutive Marian feast days on two consecutive days, which had made me wonder.

Video time
Friday night
2*5:38 + 11:59 + 6:45 + 11:10 = 2*38 + 59 + 45 + 10 = 190 = 3:10
10 + 11 + 6 + 10 + 3:10 = 40:10
Overall
7:59 + 5:59 + 6:28 + 40:10 = 59 + 59 + 28 + 10 = 156 = 2:36
7 + 5 + 6 + 40 + 2:36 = 1:00:36

Now I have less money to spend (none on me) until I can get money out of the bank, I'll probably have finished this, if you will call it so, binge. And I will probably spend some time in trance before going to sleep the days that ensue.